I'm Trying

I'm trying to put thoughts, feelings, emotions aside and concentrate on the move, now less than 2 weeks away. Packing is a pain - pitching is more therapeutic. Moving into a smaller house - downsizing. That feels good. Not as much to deal with. But still have to plan where things are going to go - the movers will ask. Can't figure it all out, but I can get close. Posted some unwanted furniture on Craigslist - 3 pieces posted, 3 pieces sold. Offered used cribs on the single parents message board and found a way to pass them on. Feeling lighter already. Have a bag of old clothes ready for the Salvation Army. Wanted to get through the unwanted CD's and DVD's and list them on eBay but haven't found the time for that. But those things are smaller and so can make the move. Only so many hours in a day. Still have to work. Still have the boys to take care of. The house still needs to operate, right up to moving day. Change of address forms are in progress. Magazines and credit cards are already switched over. There's usually a missed periodical when you move, but maybe not this time. I'm aware of many 'lasts' - the last time I will do this, the last time I will go there. I try to push those thoughts away. Gotta pack more boxes. Gotta pitch more junk. Now is the time to do it. I will miss this town, neighborhood, street, yard, house, room. But this move was set up almost a year ago. I didn't want to move. I was ready to fight to stay. I've got to remind myself I'm the bigger person. And this will be better for the boys. I believe it. I have to.

Weekend

So its my weekend without the boys. But after an exhaustive week caring for Leo for 3 days, then both of them the rest of the week, on Friday when I dropped them off at daycare I was able to take a deep breath and sighhhhhhh.

I was wired when I got home from work Friday night, so I decided to work on my Myspace page - and ended up working at it past midnight. If you couldn't tell, I'm anal about making things line up and look good so it took a while to format all of the images to get each one in each category to be the same size. And I like the new music playlist I added - I'm going to try and remember to rotate the songs around so the same one doesn't start each time.

Saturday morning I went furniture shopping. Since the kids' mom moved out Leo's clothes have been in piles on the floor in his room as she got his bedroom furniture. I tried taking the boys with me to furniture stores a couple of times, but they get bored within a few minutes and furniture shopping takes time. So, I went by myself, picked out the bedroom set I liked - only to find out the one piece in the set I needed most (the dresser) was out of stock! I was looking forward to getting the furniture delivered right away, but they give you a 4 hour window where you have to be at home for the delivery, and I don't have time to wait around twice. So I told them to deliver the furniture once they get the dresser in stock - which they said would be in a couple of weeks.

Saturday night I had dinner with friends at Karoun Restaurant in Newton. Can't say any more about that, but I've seen both pictures and videos others have taken!

Sunday (today) was also busy - a bike ride in the morning followed by lunch with friends, then played a few games of pool while watching the Patriots crush the Dolphins.

Can't wait to talk to the boys on the phone tonight. When I called last night I got the answering machine so I could only leave a message.

Gone

So, she's gone. It finally happened. Now me and the boys have the house to ourselves. She left more behind than I thought she was going to so its not too bad. She even left the furniture that she tried to get me to buy from her.

I've had some of my father's furniture in storage which is going to be delivered early next week. Then I've got to get new bedroom furniture for Leo and a few other pieces to fill in where things are missing. And since she took all of the rugs, looks like I'm going to go rug shopping as well.

But that's all just stuff. The important thing is to make this place a happy home - and that's what we're going to do!